For someone in Narita [成田の誰かのために]

Tokio
3 min readApr 23, 2023

Because of that sometimes the city is bustling at night. Narita also has charming old streets and a very nice temple called Naritasan.

after all, I also come and go again, just to stop by for a while…..

Life’s uncertain journey, with today’s question “what were we then, and what will we get”

I ask myself “Will I be able to have a good day? will I be able to complete my math assignment easily, will I be able to have a good day” — my morning question when I was five years old.

I’m afraid to take on a day because I’m afraid of failing, I’m afraid — they [my parents] don’t love me anymore when I can’t make good grades and assignments at school.

I’m not the best when comparing to my old sister, but I’m trying to be like her, so that dad is proud of me.But the road is difficult and not easy, because we are different. My sister is really smart and I have a different side. I’m weak and “I’m sick”, I should have given up from the beginning, but I didn’t want to, because I would have been able to make my dad turn his attention to me one day.

I felt that I was a burden on the family “because of the extra expenses due to my frequent hospitalizations, of my health condition”.

I hated my dad when he taught me to be a tough boy and not to give up. He even said, “Don’t waste your time if it’s useles, be a person who can be useful even if no one knows about your tears”.

I — hated - him for a very long time, because I was so hurt, but he didn’t want to see me cry, or complain,- he always wanted to see me strong to face the day.

I grew up with Tiger parenting — when I could get good grades and assignments — I would get “whatever I want, but what I want was 100% of my dad’s heart” I probably couldn’t do much back then, because I was a nobody.

When I was 23 years old, after a few months of working, we celebrated my birthday at a restaurant, and she said “How was the food? Was it good?” with a smile.

I replied with a smile, “Yes, of course, I like it, the food is good”.

He continued “Yes, you will get good food, if you work, because I as your dad don’t have anything for you, so work well and live well, so that you can enjoy this food whenever you want” — by looking into my eyes, then he said again “be a person who can stand alone when I am no longer by your side, be a strong person for me”. I burst into tears and he wiped my tears away.

I’m now 31 years old, and I’ve been through a lot. I remember when one day I was about to undergo surgery, and I heard in his prayer “my daughter will live and she will be fine there because she is strong, I trust you God” said dad in his prayer.

There is another thing that makes me strong in stepping into life because I know my dad always prays for me morning — noon — and night. Now I’m in a counting of days I will be engaged to someone who is always in my dad prayers and “his prayers are answered by God” dad always prays hopefully, my daughter gets someone who always loves her, like I love her, someone who is always there for her in any other conditions, because my love is unconditional

Dad, thanks for everything, now I can stand on my own thanks, and now I understand that you love me more than anything and live enough.

And now I have got your love 100% dad, thank you for everything, allow me to continue to always take care of you until later

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“Old as she was, she still missed her daddy sometimes.” — Gloria Naylor

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