What weighs you down?
What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
What are you planning?
Happy? what are you looking for with happiness?
Did Kawaguchi tell you something about your current feelings?
Does Kawaguchi understand?
Is Kawaguchi waiting for you there?
I do not think so
Forget Kawaguchi and run with your future
You will meet another Kawaguchi someday, don’t wait and let it go, you are too tired to wait for it to come back